The First Week Uncovered

It is a beginning... and the end of a cycle. Our first week of Teacher Training with Sianna. It was a cocreative coparticipative process. We literally designed our own classes, and cotaught with our peers.

Today, she said it would be a horrible disservice if we all left the training speaking like her. The purpose of this training is for us to discover our own voice, to reveal our essence, to personalize the experience of yoga through our lens of perception, and to learn how to express that with efficacy and eloquence.

I had my moment of recognition today as a teacher of Anusara yoga. Sianna observed me teaching Badokonasana. Just as she had done with my peers, she gave me real time feedback. She helped me to see the next steps, and then encouraged me to step forward with confidence.

I was longing for the opportunity to teach in front of her. In her presence, I naturally shine. She brings out the best in me, and so I get to witness the best of myself. It fills me with confidence, a deeper understanding and a sense of purpose.

It is a paradox. I am actually nervous before it happens. There is a part of me that is so anxious to jump into the fire, and another heavy part of myself that is very timid and faltering. And then the opportunity presents itself, I jump into the fire, and emerge pure, joyful and awake.

I really valued her contribution to my growth through her recognition of my foundation, her insightful guidance and her affirmation of my progress.